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`Mirz123 is back !!!

Check her journal here [link]

Even though she came back ..but I'm not going to remove this deviation . I'll let it to be a reminder of how much I loved her and how much I'll feel sad if anyone of you just leave .

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Original Artist's Comment :

OK ..I know that you are all shocked !! Why is Lily ,whose always known to be the happiest and most optimistic person emote , crying ??

It's because she is missing her dearest friend Minnie . `Mirz123 had activated her account today ...which was a major shock to Me and to Lily .

We were planning for many ,yes many ,surprises this Christmas . Some of which that I had already made and it already features Minnie .

Lily was also eager to see how is Minnie going to react about them .

But all of these are not the reasons to our sadness .. We are not as sad for the art's sake as we are sad for the person's sake .

Michelle has always been one of THE BEST friends and supporters I had here in dA . She did had those panic attacks a couple of times before and she said that she was going to leave dA a couple of times before ,but then I prayed that she won't leave dA .And she didn't .

This time I didn't had this chance to pray as her departure was so unexpected . Especially during the holiday season where we are supposed to be happy and enjoying our time .

I feel awful .
I know that I'm now in denial period because I keep wishing that this can be reverted and we can have her back somehow ,

Then I might get mad at her for leaving us and being such a quitter (which I know I shouldn't think like that since I don't know what she had passed through ) ,

Then I'll be in the sorrow period and feel depressed .

And then I'll end up by accepting the truth . Though I know that dA won't be the same as it was as before .

OK ..I don't want any of you to feel that way because of me ..so Here's a promise …

I swear that I'll never deactivate this account , If I had to leave for some reason ,God forbid , I'll keep my account open so you all can comment and see my works .

Though I wish that the only reason why I would leave you is my own death .

Peace be upon you